I explode in bursts of self-hatred to people occasionally as a safety precaution, because internalizing my self-loathing [which is integral to my sanity, or lack thereof, depending on your rationale] is dangerous and will probably result in me like hurting/killing myself which is apparently not something people are supposed to do like I will get scolded for that stuff like some child who has eaten too many cookies so yeah rather not be slapped on the back of the hand
dead in absentia;
